On Breakdowns and Breakthroughs
July 15, 2020
It was like I was caught in a trap in order to force me to see just how tightly my ego was trying to hold on to control. Any attempts to bring myself out on my own through breath or meditation were short-lived and felt insincere.
What angered me the most is that just the day before, I had experienced such profound clarity about how to step out of the density of the physical world and live more embodied and connected to a higher source of inspiration ✨✨
It was confusing to my nervous system to shift from a place of openness and oneness to being contracted and afraid and feeling no way out. Yet it was clear that that’s just what my ego wanted to show me that it was in control! I had a choice- I could stay caught in the breakdown and use it as an excuse to play the victim or realize the gift that it was.
You see, breakdowns are made to release the expectations that no longer serve you to make room for the bigger version that is ready to emerge.
I was being pulled back into the old familiar patterns of reacting to the world where my fears and doubts led the way so that I could feel how much that didn’t serve me anymore. It was no coincidence that this deep breakdown came just after a big aha moment.
Breakdowns and breakthroughs go hand-in-hand.
So let the faulty foundation crumble to the ground so you can start anew. You need the space to process so you can see possibilities that you may not have seen before.
It was like I was caught in a trap in order to force me to see just how tightly my ego was trying to hold on to control. Any attempts to bring myself out on my own through breath or meditation were short-lived and felt insincere.
What angered me the most is that just the day before, I had experienced such profound clarity about how to step out of the density of the physical world and live more embodied and connected to a higher source of inspiration ✨✨
It was confusing to my nervous system to shift from a place of openness and oneness to being contracted and afraid and feeling no way out. Yet it was clear that that’s just what my ego wanted to show me that it was in control! I had a choice- I could stay caught in the breakdown and use it as an excuse to play the victim or realize the gift that it was.
You see, breakdowns are made to release the expectations that no longer serve you to make room for the bigger version that is ready to emerge.
I was being pulled back into the old familiar patterns of reacting to the world where my fears and doubts led the way so that I could feel how much that didn’t serve me anymore. It was no coincidence that this deep breakdown came just after a big aha moment.
Breakdowns and breakthroughs go hand-in-hand.
So let the faulty foundation crumble to the ground so you can start anew. You need the space to process so you can see possibilities that you may not have seen before.
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